About a month ago I read a very familiar book to much of the world, especially the American mom... Fifty Shades of Grey/Darker/Freed. But, of course in my circle of friends and peers this is seen as a terrible, if not abominable thing we call a book. So, what do I do: Write a paper. I met with my advisor and came up with ideas. Initially, I wanted to write a persuasive paper educating people on what Fifty Shades of Grey is all about (it's more than just sex). I wanted to take the side of society and show a lighter side of Grey, not just the darker shades that seem to cloud everyone's mind. But, Frankly, I would probably get run over by a bus. I revamped my ideas and come up with a literary analysis/critique of the book. You'd think that it would be easy and less stressful on me. Wrong! I am about 50 shades of angst right now. I wasn't too happy with it to start out with.
"This isn't what I wanted the paper to turn out to be... just washed up and bleached. I don't want it to be white... I want it to mirror the Fifty shades that Mr. Grey really is."
But, as a Christian how do I come to terms and wrestle with the issues presented in the book and how I present them in my paper. Everyone always wants a clear cut conclusion, but our reality is soaked in a rainbow of grey. In the end, I present my papers today. Whether or not they are what I really want them to be or if I ended up writing them to match the standards of the college I attend. I suppose I'm happy with the end product. It provides a balance of redemption and condemnation. Now I think to myself:
"I choose what I fill my mind with. I can only really inform myself and not the people around me. I set out on this journey for me alone, not to let the world know just how wonderful or horrid the books are. At the end of the day I am only left with me and my consciousness."
"This isn't what I wanted the paper to turn out to be... just washed up and bleached. I don't want it to be white... I want it to mirror the Fifty shades that Mr. Grey really is."
But, as a Christian how do I come to terms and wrestle with the issues presented in the book and how I present them in my paper. Everyone always wants a clear cut conclusion, but our reality is soaked in a rainbow of grey. In the end, I present my papers today. Whether or not they are what I really want them to be or if I ended up writing them to match the standards of the college I attend. I suppose I'm happy with the end product. It provides a balance of redemption and condemnation. Now I think to myself:
"I choose what I fill my mind with. I can only really inform myself and not the people around me. I set out on this journey for me alone, not to let the world know just how wonderful or horrid the books are. At the end of the day I am only left with me and my consciousness."