"This isn't what I wanted the paper to turn out to be... just washed up and bleached. I don't want it to be white... I want it to mirror the Fifty shades that Mr. Grey really is."
But, as a Christian how do I come to terms and wrestle with the issues presented in the book and how I present them in my paper. Everyone always wants a clear cut conclusion, but our reality is soaked in a rainbow of grey. In the end, I present my papers today. Whether or not they are what I really want them to be or if I ended up writing them to match the standards of the college I attend. I suppose I'm happy with the end product. It provides a balance of redemption and condemnation. Now I think to myself:
"I choose what I fill my mind with. I can only really inform myself and not the people around me. I set out on this journey for me alone, not to let the world know just how wonderful or horrid the books are. At the end of the day I am only left with me and my consciousness."